on again, OFF again...

UGH!!  
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well, wheat and i were on again the last couple weeks...  i was going hot and heavy with Subway, Dunkin Dounuts, and Panera!!  YUM.

but alas we were not meant to be.  i woke up this morning and i felt like i got run over by a truck.  now i feel like i have a knife in the back of neck.  and to top it off last night i literally wanted to kill myself over something i knew was super super dumb.  

NOTHING tastes as good as feeling good feels.  I guess i just have to keep telling myself that.

this morning, as part of my rehab, i went into Dunkin Dounuts and didn't order anything but my coffee.  i said good bye to Subway today for lunch... ham and cheese, lettuce, tomato, onion, banana peppers and extra mayo on WHITE...  GOOD BYE!!  

the great part about my wheat detox/ rehab is i can make a fresh start with my next bite and i can be in total control of how this goes from here.  i am so a food addict.  

i feel better just for getting it out and know with absolute certainty that i'll feel better in the morning... and maybe my pants will fit better too.  i am SO bloated.

UGH!!